I thought after the extended water fast, I would not return to old eating habits. Turns out I still take great pleasure in eating, and enjoy food preparation like never before. I just don’t like the effect it’s having on my body. Delicious in my mouth, but heavy in my body.
I find myself questioning my relationship to food again. I would like to simply outgrow the need for it physically, emotionally and mentally through fully adopting the belief in inedia and allowing it to develop naturally by tuning in to the source of life within...the love that I AM. What a great way to serve humanity to be one of the thousands to prove that the human body can live on sunlight alone with the focus on the Internal flame, the Light within. Is it possible? I am still interested in exploring this possibility.
I find myself questioning my relationship to food again. I would like to simply outgrow the need for it physically, emotionally and mentally through fully adopting the belief in inedia and allowing it to develop naturally by tuning in to the source of life within...the love that I AM. What a great way to serve humanity to be one of the thousands to prove that the human body can live on sunlight alone with the focus on the Internal flame, the Light within. Is it possible? I am still interested in exploring this possibility.
What I don't want is to use my body as a food processor. It seems when I eat more than I need, or eat heavy foods, I feel uncomfortable. I am practicing being more consistent and committed to not abusing my body with overeating, nor withholding what it needs. As in all aspects of a human experience in a world of duality, finding the balance is key.
I have taken up sun gazing again with the intent to integrate fully the benefits this time. I came just short of completing the program in 2011, but still enjoy the benefits and intend to take it to completion. My family tells me the biggest change I have made since the fast is a much greater sense of peace in every situation. I attribute much of this to sun gazing and the profound insights I received during the extended fast. I have a completely different relationship with my body. That's a good start.
I feel a lot of excitement around exploring "beyond belief" all the possibilities available to the human race without the pressure of expectation nor the attachment to the outcome. I believe this is the most powerful method of pure creation.
