Update

I'm noticing many family and friends seem concerned about my physical condition, and say the blog doesn't really give enough detail about that.  Right now, I feel very close to normal.  Maybe a couple more weeks.  I lost a lot of muscle, because of having to rest so much.  So it will take some exercising to bring that back.  Most of the fluid retention is gone.  I feel great, and am almost back to my regular activities.

I was diagnosed with temporary heart failure, and put on medications that are bringing my heart into a strong, healthy rhythm. I will go in for an MRI on my heart on the 23rd to see exactly what can be done in terms of an ablation to correct the electrical misfiring that causes atrial fibrillation, which can lead to heart failure.  It is a new procedure developed (lucky for me) right here at the University of Utah.  www.healthsciences.utah.edu/carma 

By the way, I LOVE food, always have.  I feel happy that I scheduled the fast to end during the harvest.  I'm loving the fresh, raw garden veggies and fruits.  It seems that going without food for a while always makes me appreciate the succulent varieties Mother Earth offers more than ever. 

I'm really appreciating the value of conscious eating.  I am committed to eating the foods in season and keeping it simple.  My body does really well with a lifestyle of at least 80% raw food.  We'll see how that works in the winter.

The Power of Surrender

I'm feeling better and stronger each day.  After getting things off my chest about my heart, I feel at peace. 

I'm appreciating the many opportunities to practice surrendering to what is during this experience.  I'm noticing many of the things I used to worry over, or want to change, just don't matter any more.  Surrendering is about letting go of the need to control.  It's about appreciating what this moment is offering.  For me right now, it is the richness of life itself.  Words seem so inadequate to the feelings that come up.  It seems to not really make sense.  Nothing makes sense any more.  It just IS. 

It's amazing to me how powerful it can be to face the demons in our lives.  The parts of us that we would like to ignore, or hide from, or deny.  I am appreciating the power of humility to lead to the path of LOVE, the power of a heart broken open to let LOVE in, the power of facing death to appreciate LIFE, and the power of unraveling the ego to realize our innocence.

I would love to hear your shares.  I'm imagining we have all experienced letting go, and letting LOVE in.