So I did the potatoes and grapefruit juice for a few days as well as a few other fruits & veggies. Saturday, July 30, I woke feeling strongly I needed more direction. I began to slip into fear again. I knew I was doing better, but it was so slow. I didn't realize how far I had crossed, but was surely feeling the effects.
I called Don over. He kindly came. He said my eyes showed much progress. One thing he and my daughter, Jessica, who is a nurse, strongly emphasized was to drink just water alone to hydrate. Since I hadn't been tolerating water well, I had been drinking lots of watered down juices. I geared myself up to find a way to enjoy water again, ice in the water helped. At the end of the day, I was taking it well.
He suggested my favorite salad among other things. Cafe' Rio, of course. I looked forward with excitement all day. My body loved every delicious bite, and it started the action of the colon needed. It was perfect.
Later, Spirit urged my sister, Bonnie, (who is an energy master, reiki master, medical intuitive and shaman, http://www.soulbalancing.com/ ) to come over and give me what I needed energetically. She said my aura was extremely low and my battery was needing a kick start. After she assisted me in getting grounded and reconnecting me to my auric field, she cautioned me to stay connected to Life Force, Love within to allow the aura to rebuild and become strong again. I had NO energy reserve. My body needed tons of Love.
Throughout this experiment, I have felt strongly, the love and concern of legions. I feel grateful for the lives I have touched, and the power of Love I have gratefully received from so many. Knowing we are all connected in Love, Spirit, God, gives me great comfort. Thank you all for your Love and Prayers. I know they have carried me through.
Today, I felt to get some fresh garden beets. They are very healing to the colon. My family, so loving and supportive. Prepared my meals.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Saturday, July 30, 2011
New Hope, New Learnings
By Tues. July 25, I awoke feeling so traumatized, I knew I had to make a drastic change in what I was doing. I was trying to get back to food and wanted to be gentle, but in so much fear & survival. I think that subtle, ego centered expectation completely threw me off center.
My dear friend, Don Tolman, who has an amazing understanding of the chemistry and workings of the body, as well as lots of experience with fasting, was willing to give me just the guidance I needed. He understood exactly what I needed to find the balance and get back on food. He explained it beautifully, so I could understand. He has access to a wealth of ancient indigenous teachings society has completely lost touch with. His website is http://www.dontolman.com/
He told me to eat mashed potatoes with butter and salt for three days. Can you believe it! Oh my! It was sooo yummy and felt so good. I enjoyed every bite. The only juice that feels good on my tummy now is grapefruit juice. I still have a difficult time with water.
Don taught me that because women have a completely different make up than men, they need to do the 40 day water fast in 10 day segments, quarterly, and in sync with the new moon. He found it in some ancient teachings that the women healers understood. That would be way gentler! Now I know. I will not cross this line again.
I feel a little stronger each day, and feel the effects of running too far, too fast. My body is still working very hard to find the balance. I LOVE my body! I've learned that I am not a victim of my body, EVER! It just wants to be LOVED, HONORED, and RESPECTED.
My dear friend, Don Tolman, who has an amazing understanding of the chemistry and workings of the body, as well as lots of experience with fasting, was willing to give me just the guidance I needed. He understood exactly what I needed to find the balance and get back on food. He explained it beautifully, so I could understand. He has access to a wealth of ancient indigenous teachings society has completely lost touch with. His website is http://www.dontolman.com/
He told me to eat mashed potatoes with butter and salt for three days. Can you believe it! Oh my! It was sooo yummy and felt so good. I enjoyed every bite. The only juice that feels good on my tummy now is grapefruit juice. I still have a difficult time with water.
Don taught me that because women have a completely different make up than men, they need to do the 40 day water fast in 10 day segments, quarterly, and in sync with the new moon. He found it in some ancient teachings that the women healers understood. That would be way gentler! Now I know. I will not cross this line again.
I feel a little stronger each day, and feel the effects of running too far, too fast. My body is still working very hard to find the balance. I LOVE my body! I've learned that I am not a victim of my body, EVER! It just wants to be LOVED, HONORED, and RESPECTED.
Day 20
I went in for the third colonic. Still lots of dumping. It completely wiped me out, and sent my spleen into a healing crises. OUCH! I had read in LSWF that as each organ is going through its own healing crises, there could be a lot of pain involved. I feel so grateful to have my beloved there to take care of my needs.
I began to grasp the realization that my body has gone very deep, physically, mentally, and emotionally. A lot of the fears were old familiar ones, so, easy to recognize. Not so easy to move through. I spent the next two days assisting the spleen to clean and heal. Hardly able to move, I felt physically like I was loosing ground, but keeping in mind the healing process and feeling grateful for the inner strength and wisdom of my body to know what to do.
I had decided to move back to food. I didn't really know the best way (self-doubt). I was aware that you can run too far, too fast. I felt I had reached a point of feeling emaciated. The fear was that I had taken it too far.
It was difficult to find anything that didn't trigger the nausea, even mint.
I began to grasp the realization that my body has gone very deep, physically, mentally, and emotionally. A lot of the fears were old familiar ones, so, easy to recognize. Not so easy to move through. I spent the next two days assisting the spleen to clean and heal. Hardly able to move, I felt physically like I was loosing ground, but keeping in mind the healing process and feeling grateful for the inner strength and wisdom of my body to know what to do.
I had decided to move back to food. I didn't really know the best way (self-doubt). I was aware that you can run too far, too fast. I felt I had reached a point of feeling emaciated. The fear was that I had taken it too far.
It was difficult to find anything that didn't trigger the nausea, even mint.
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Day 19
Well, the experiment is going in a different direction than I anticipated, and I'm going with it. I will continue diluted juices until my system calms down. Then I will decide to continue the fast or go back to food. Either way, I consider the experiment a success. My main goal was learning to honor my body and listen to my intuition. I continue in this.
I did the second colonic, and felt much stronger. I'm feeling a lot of bloat. The gas isn't moving well. It helps to move about, but I don't have a lot of energy for that..
It's the halfway point of the 40 day fast. Perhaps a 20 day is all I want to do this time. We'll see what tomorrow brings.
I did the second colonic, and felt much stronger. I'm feeling a lot of bloat. The gas isn't moving well. It helps to move about, but I don't have a lot of energy for that..
It's the halfway point of the 40 day fast. Perhaps a 20 day is all I want to do this time. We'll see what tomorrow brings.
Friday, July 22, 2011
Day 18
Today was very rough and challenging. I had more deep emotional feelings that took me back to my first pregnancy, where I had done all the right things to prepare myself for the best outcome for a normal, healthy baby. The labor was a literal nightmare, the baby wouldn't come. Later, the stillborn baby had to be extracted from my body. I couldn't finish. So, more fears of failure cropped up for me to look at. Since we hold fear in our stomachs, it increased the nausea to where I couldn't even eat ice.
I had scheduled a colonic, hoping to get things moving. The whole process exhausted me more, but it sure moved a lot of toxins out. The therapist emphasized that a lot of the symptoms I was having were signs of mineral depletion and toxic overload. She gave me a couple of ounces of probiotic kiefer with a bit of pomegranate juice. It felt so good, I decided to take a few days of this combination, alternating with lemon juice in water, and schedule two more days of colonics to clean the lymphs as well.
The problem came when I forgot an important point JMW makes in his book, LSWF about heavily diluting the juice at first. I did the lemon water too strong, and it sent my stomach into spasms. Not fun! It felt so good to keep something down, I wasn't paying attention.
Right now, I'm trying some diluted mint tea to see if things will settle down. Wish me luck!
I had scheduled a colonic, hoping to get things moving. The whole process exhausted me more, but it sure moved a lot of toxins out. The therapist emphasized that a lot of the symptoms I was having were signs of mineral depletion and toxic overload. She gave me a couple of ounces of probiotic kiefer with a bit of pomegranate juice. It felt so good, I decided to take a few days of this combination, alternating with lemon juice in water, and schedule two more days of colonics to clean the lymphs as well.
The problem came when I forgot an important point JMW makes in his book, LSWF about heavily diluting the juice at first. I did the lemon water too strong, and it sent my stomach into spasms. Not fun! It felt so good to keep something down, I wasn't paying attention.
Right now, I'm trying some diluted mint tea to see if things will settle down. Wish me luck!
Thursday, July 21, 2011
New Learnings, Day 17
I learned some important things today. I had been spending a lot of time curled up in a ball with no energy to move, just waiting it out. I knew I should keep moving, but it was forced and weak. Ninety percent of a reprogramming effort like this is a mental exercise, as is life, to stay focused on what works instead of what doesn't work, right? When I realized old fears were taking over, I knew I had to change my focus.
My intuition told me there was something in LSWF that would be helpful. I found some really important tips I wasn't using. Movement is important, but Conscious movement is key. Staying conscious of my chi (prana, energy) while I move, and let my body decide the moves. So I set out in nature and just followed my intuition paying close attention to my chi. Not only did I get some good exercise, but stayed strong throughout.
The mind must have something to do. By keeping it focused on the strength of my chi, instead of the program that I am emaciated from not eating, I was able to bypass that program and create one that serves me.
Also, I allowed myself to enjoy the taste and aroma of a very small portion of vegetarian chicken flavored soup stock. I felt it important to let go of the need to do this perfect. I just put a drop on my tongue and let it sit there for about a minute consciously savoring the flavor. It was so yummy, I tried some more later in the day, but my body wasn't interested. I felt complete.
I got a hint from JMW about why my body would only take ice chips instead of water. It wants the water to be pre-digested. Who knew? So, I've enjoyed ice chips all day, which kept the thirst at a minimum.
My intuition told me there was something in LSWF that would be helpful. I found some really important tips I wasn't using. Movement is important, but Conscious movement is key. Staying conscious of my chi (prana, energy) while I move, and let my body decide the moves. So I set out in nature and just followed my intuition paying close attention to my chi. Not only did I get some good exercise, but stayed strong throughout.
The mind must have something to do. By keeping it focused on the strength of my chi, instead of the program that I am emaciated from not eating, I was able to bypass that program and create one that serves me.
Also, I allowed myself to enjoy the taste and aroma of a very small portion of vegetarian chicken flavored soup stock. I felt it important to let go of the need to do this perfect. I just put a drop on my tongue and let it sit there for about a minute consciously savoring the flavor. It was so yummy, I tried some more later in the day, but my body wasn't interested. I felt complete.
I got a hint from JMW about why my body would only take ice chips instead of water. It wants the water to be pre-digested. Who knew? So, I've enjoyed ice chips all day, which kept the thirst at a minimum.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
The Fear Monster
I had no idea I had so much FEAR around succeeding! It hit me hard tonight and I had a melt down. I realize I have set myself up for failure by creating a lot of pressure from myself (through my readers) to finish this to the end, and it is bringing up my deepest, darkest self doubt. I am now exposing my most authentic raw self in this moment. I need to let go of the idea that I MUST do this. It is making me miserable, and I'm next to giving up.
This is bringing up a core mistrust of my body created by an incident with my Dad when I was 3yrs. old. I held myself so rigid so as to obey him, so he would stop spanking me. I forced the tears down and the noise from my throat, but my body betrayed me and reacted to all I was trying to hold back. It wasn't good enough. I couldn't pull it off. I couldn't trust my body to do what I wanted it to.
I feel this is coming up to be healed. I don't feel strong enough mentally right now. Right now my self doubt is as strong as my belief. I would rather LOVE myself and be gentle in this moment than worry about succeeding. I can always try it again another time when I don't feel under any pressure. I don't know how else to let it go other than to just stop, or do some juice for a few days. I'll sleep on it. We'll see.
So, I don't know if I will continue the fast. I may need to stop it now and know that I have already succeeded in as far as I have come. I'm just noticing the fear is over riding my intuition. I'm having difficulty navigating until I can let go of this anxiety.
This is bringing up a core mistrust of my body created by an incident with my Dad when I was 3yrs. old. I held myself so rigid so as to obey him, so he would stop spanking me. I forced the tears down and the noise from my throat, but my body betrayed me and reacted to all I was trying to hold back. It wasn't good enough. I couldn't pull it off. I couldn't trust my body to do what I wanted it to.
I feel this is coming up to be healed. I don't feel strong enough mentally right now. Right now my self doubt is as strong as my belief. I would rather LOVE myself and be gentle in this moment than worry about succeeding. I can always try it again another time when I don't feel under any pressure. I don't know how else to let it go other than to just stop, or do some juice for a few days. I'll sleep on it. We'll see.
So, I don't know if I will continue the fast. I may need to stop it now and know that I have already succeeded in as far as I have come. I'm just noticing the fear is over riding my intuition. I'm having difficulty navigating until I can let go of this anxiety.
It's All About Food
Day 16: I got some good sleep last night (3 hrs.), I finally got to sun gaze (it's been cloudy), and feel much better today. I feel VERY thirsty, yet my stomach won't accept water. I suspect my pancreas is being worked on. My mouth felt so much like it does when you just get out of surgery and you have cotten mouth, so I thought about sucking on ice chips. That always seemed to relieve the thirst without upsetting the stomach. I worked! So I've been sucking ice chips all day with good results. I even had enough energy to go for a short walk. Then I sat in my water fall and let the water splash on me.
I got some feedback from a generous reader about letting nature feed me and loving my body. I practiced that, with good results.
I joined a forum on the breatharian.info website. It is so helpful to learn from others experiences and research. I found this quote on one of them that really resonated with me.
Then I was reading an article about the intentional programming marketers do to get people to consume more food. It reminded me of what has sadly become the norm since the 70's and maybe why so many Americans are obese.
I got some feedback from a generous reader about letting nature feed me and loving my body. I practiced that, with good results.
I joined a forum on the breatharian.info website. It is so helpful to learn from others experiences and research. I found this quote on one of them that really resonated with me.
"You also realise what an incredible diversion food is on this planet and the energy that is expended on growing it, harvesting it, distributing it, selling it, preparing it, eating it, and the social integration that goes on around that. And the amount of time and money one can release into your life if you don't have to spend a tremendous amount of your life on food. You can use that time and energy towards achieving other ends." - Robin Adams, Breatharian
Then I was reading an article about the intentional programming marketers do to get people to consume more food. It reminded me of what has sadly become the norm since the 70's and maybe why so many Americans are obese.
This journey is about changing that unconscious habit for me, so that I can enjoy a more healthy, pain free body and more vitality. --and by the way, have the freedom to choose. What are your thoughts?"It's all about making people think they want to have something in their hands all the time," he says. "Why are we snacking all the time and munching all the time? [Food] is there, it's available all the time, it's tasty. It's not very healthy, but it's tasty. It's sweet, it's salty, it's fatty—it's all the things we love."
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Day 15 of 40
Since being off water, I've only been able to sleep until 3:00 a.m. Last night I lay awake all night. This morning I felt very light headed. It definitely feels like a total rest day. I was extremely thirsty this a.m. I was able to gradually sip about 3 oz. of water this morning, but no more . I did a colon wash and, I think retained quite a bit that way.
I have felt pretty limp and weak all day. I've experienced a lot of pain in my upper back behind the heart, and some pain in my heart. It feels like some unseen force is operating on my heart, and I just have to be still and let them do their work.
Yesterday, I noticed some swelling and tenderness in a couple of old varicous veins. I see that and today's heart issue as a healing crises, and I celebrate. Today the swelling on the veins went down and are no longer tender. I really appreciate that my body knows what it's doing, and I just get to enjoy the outcome.
I have felt pretty limp and weak all day. I've experienced a lot of pain in my upper back behind the heart, and some pain in my heart. It feels like some unseen force is operating on my heart, and I just have to be still and let them do their work.
Yesterday, I noticed some swelling and tenderness in a couple of old varicous veins. I see that and today's heart issue as a healing crises, and I celebrate. Today the swelling on the veins went down and are no longer tender. I really appreciate that my body knows what it's doing, and I just get to enjoy the outcome.
Monday, July 18, 2011
Day 14 of 40
I have tried taking a little more water today just to see if I'm ready for water. My body only tolerates a sip at a time. I don't worry about dehydration, because if I can't get water down my stomach and really need it, I can always do a colon wash and get some that way. So far we're doing well. Thank you, God.
I ventured out on a few activities...went for a walk, did laundry, drove to get a hair cut. The drive was interesting I felt very unsteady, not safe. I noticed a certain level of stress with driving that we don't normally feel. I had to keep breathing to keep from being light headed, yet too much oxygen make me light headed too. It was tricky. I don't think I want to drive again until I feel much stronger.
The time has passed quickly, and I have a feeling the last part will go even faster. Tonight I'm feeling pretty weak and a little tender in the stomach.
I ventured out on a few activities...went for a walk, did laundry, drove to get a hair cut. The drive was interesting I felt very unsteady, not safe. I noticed a certain level of stress with driving that we don't normally feel. I had to keep breathing to keep from being light headed, yet too much oxygen make me light headed too. It was tricky. I don't think I want to drive again until I feel much stronger.
The time has passed quickly, and I have a feeling the last part will go even faster. Tonight I'm feeling pretty weak and a little tender in the stomach.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Day 13 of 40
Several surprises showed up today. This is day three without water, except to swish my mouth and swallow occasionally. My body still does not want it. I tried a few swallows for lunch and felt nauseous.
I'm imagining the burning sensation in my upper back and neck is a symptom that the cleansing process is accelerating. This is where I have held a lot of negativity, tension, and carried burdens that didn't belong to me. It feels good to be relieved of all that.
Also, I have been cold in the shade and worn socks to keep my feet warm. Today, my body temperature went up so that I don't need a blanket anymore. I did 29 minutes sun gazing and practicing a lot of deep breathing to feed my body with Cosmic rays of light. It really works to strengthen me when I feel weak. I also did a little Tai Chi and walking, which I think must be helping my energy levels.
I notice my heart getting stronger and slower. In the past ten years I have experienced symptoms of heart failure, atrial fibrillation, weak pulse, and rapid heart rate. I'm excited that my heart is so strong now I can actually FEEL it beating. WooHoo! I'm so grateful for the loving support and faith to get off all medications and supplements and let my body do what it is designed to do.
I'm imagining the burning sensation in my upper back and neck is a symptom that the cleansing process is accelerating. This is where I have held a lot of negativity, tension, and carried burdens that didn't belong to me. It feels good to be relieved of all that.
Also, I have been cold in the shade and worn socks to keep my feet warm. Today, my body temperature went up so that I don't need a blanket anymore. I did 29 minutes sun gazing and practicing a lot of deep breathing to feed my body with Cosmic rays of light. It really works to strengthen me when I feel weak. I also did a little Tai Chi and walking, which I think must be helping my energy levels.
I notice my heart getting stronger and slower. In the past ten years I have experienced symptoms of heart failure, atrial fibrillation, weak pulse, and rapid heart rate. I'm excited that my heart is so strong now I can actually FEEL it beating. WooHoo! I'm so grateful for the loving support and faith to get off all medications and supplements and let my body do what it is designed to do.
Friday, July 15, 2011
Day 11 of 40
I found out today that the flatulence, burping and nausea are all good signs that the cleansing process is in full alignment with the body's healing process. Yeah!
My friend, Don Tolman, has a lot of experience with 40 day fasting, and is one of my consultants. Lucky me! He said the nausea might be relieved if I go 24 hrs. without water. I did that today. It was easier than I anticipated, and it took care of the nausea to a large degree. Also, I learned that it is normal for the body temperature to go way down since no heat is being created by metabolism. That's why I chose the hottest part of the year to do this.
I got a lot more rest today, and though tired at the end of the day, I didn't crash. It was so lovely lying in the hammock under the aspen trees next to the waterfall with a big blanket around me to keep warm. I couldn't ask for a better place to do this challenging fast than my own back yard, up high in the Rocky Mountains.
I'm practicing taking a deep breath while focusing on my Inner I AM Source of Life to strengthen me when I feel weak. It works like a charm, and motivates me to spend more time in contemplation, focusing on using I AM to feed me, as I surrender to Divine Love within.
I'm sleeping very well. This morning I practiced sun gazing just listening to my intuition, and felt complete after 35 min. In the past, I have relied on my timer, and the stories in my head that I need to follow a schedule. My intuition ruled the day, and I'm pleased with the results.
My friend, Don Tolman, has a lot of experience with 40 day fasting, and is one of my consultants. Lucky me! He said the nausea might be relieved if I go 24 hrs. without water. I did that today. It was easier than I anticipated, and it took care of the nausea to a large degree. Also, I learned that it is normal for the body temperature to go way down since no heat is being created by metabolism. That's why I chose the hottest part of the year to do this.
I got a lot more rest today, and though tired at the end of the day, I didn't crash. It was so lovely lying in the hammock under the aspen trees next to the waterfall with a big blanket around me to keep warm. I couldn't ask for a better place to do this challenging fast than my own back yard, up high in the Rocky Mountains.
I'm practicing taking a deep breath while focusing on my Inner I AM Source of Life to strengthen me when I feel weak. It works like a charm, and motivates me to spend more time in contemplation, focusing on using I AM to feed me, as I surrender to Divine Love within.
I'm sleeping very well. This morning I practiced sun gazing just listening to my intuition, and felt complete after 35 min. In the past, I have relied on my timer, and the stories in my head that I need to follow a schedule. My intuition ruled the day, and I'm pleased with the results.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Day 10
I notice I've been passing a lot of gas the last couple of days. I thought maybe it was because I needed to wash the colon, so I did that this morning. Besides, I notice after a couple days of not washing, I start feeling icky, almost like the flu. I felt much better and seemed to have more stamina today as I did a little puttering. I even had enough energy tonight to do a short walk about the mountain.
It seems that whenever I drink water makes me burp. I don't know what that's about, nor how long it will last. I notice too, that when I drink water later in the evening, it makes me nauseous. I thought it was because I drank too much at a time. But when I tried sipping just a little tonight, it still made me sick.
Throughout the day I generally feel light headed when I stand up too fast, especially as my energy wanes as the day goes on. If I don't rest sufficiently between activities, my heart races. I often feel a general weakness in my body. I suppose it's working very hard to clean out.
Thank you, God, for this amazing body and it's ability to clean, repair, and rejuvinate itself when we trust and honor its process.
It seems that whenever I drink water makes me burp. I don't know what that's about, nor how long it will last. I notice too, that when I drink water later in the evening, it makes me nauseous. I thought it was because I drank too much at a time. But when I tried sipping just a little tonight, it still made me sick.
Throughout the day I generally feel light headed when I stand up too fast, especially as my energy wanes as the day goes on. If I don't rest sufficiently between activities, my heart races. I often feel a general weakness in my body. I suppose it's working very hard to clean out.
Thank you, God, for this amazing body and it's ability to clean, repair, and rejuvinate itself when we trust and honor its process.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Day 9 of 40
I felt great all day. I even went to the city to see my sisters, and felt strong and energized. I had a foot zoning to help the cleansing process. I noticed a little edema, and my friend who was doing the foot zoning said it may be coming off my spleen. The spleen works closely with the lymph system to keep the organs clean. The lymphs need body movement to move the toxins. So I decided to jump on the trampoline. It worked really well when I was on the juice fast.
I was surprised at my strength when I was moving big rocks around in the waterfall. Afterwards, I lay down to rest and crashed. I got really thirsty, drank more water and am now going to bed feeling nauseous. I don't really understand the whys, so am not sure about any corrective measures. I tried a little salt water. It took the edge off so I could sleep. Joachim said vomiting would be one of the symptoms of a water fast, and it would be temporary. I get to just BE with it for now.
I was surprised at my strength when I was moving big rocks around in the waterfall. Afterwards, I lay down to rest and crashed. I got really thirsty, drank more water and am now going to bed feeling nauseous. I don't really understand the whys, so am not sure about any corrective measures. I tried a little salt water. It took the edge off so I could sleep. Joachim said vomiting would be one of the symptoms of a water fast, and it would be temporary. I get to just BE with it for now.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Prana Meditation
Day 8: I started the day with an enema to clean out. I felt great all morning and into the afternoon. I commited to just resting today. I did a little light housework toward evening and it took my energy down fast. Overall, it was a good day. I felt much better than yesterday. Rest & be gentle seems to be the key.
I found a meditation I really like from a breatharian named Jasmuheen http://youtu.be/7OTeCk66AK8. I found it to be very helpful when fasting, to keep up my energies. The following are parts of it:
"...slow, relaxed, deep breathing, gently refined, connected breathing. I am a pure, perfect being - the Master of my body. Every cell is open to receive instruction from Master. Take a few moments to appreciate and love my body. I love you, I love you, I love you. ...cellular capacity to attract, receive, and radiate Love. Acknowledge the pure prana [energy] within [from I AM source]... With each inhale, drink in pure prana with every cell of my being... Every atom is a door...an inner door. Draw pure Love, prana into every cell... Pure prana nurishes me now - ...exhale...direct the flow of pranic energy out through every cell through skeletal, lymph, blood lines, meridians, organs, endochrine system, nervous system out though the skin to flood my aura, to nourish... then out to the world to nourish the environment with pure streams of Love.
All my vitamins, all my minerals, everything I need to be strong healthy, self regenerating comes from a limitless source of Love, Pure Prana that flows from the inner realms through me now.
As I walk through this world, with every breath, I draw it in from the inner realms and radiate it out through my being so that my presence nourishes this world."
I found a meditation I really like from a breatharian named Jasmuheen http://youtu.be/7OTeCk66AK8. I found it to be very helpful when fasting, to keep up my energies. The following are parts of it:
"...slow, relaxed, deep breathing, gently refined, connected breathing. I am a pure, perfect being - the Master of my body. Every cell is open to receive instruction from Master. Take a few moments to appreciate and love my body. I love you, I love you, I love you. ...cellular capacity to attract, receive, and radiate Love. Acknowledge the pure prana [energy] within [from I AM source]... With each inhale, drink in pure prana with every cell of my being... Every atom is a door...an inner door. Draw pure Love, prana into every cell... Pure prana nurishes me now - ...exhale...direct the flow of pranic energy out through every cell through skeletal, lymph, blood lines, meridians, organs, endochrine system, nervous system out though the skin to flood my aura, to nourish... then out to the world to nourish the environment with pure streams of Love.
All my vitamins, all my minerals, everything I need to be strong healthy, self regenerating comes from a limitless source of Love, Pure Prana that flows from the inner realms through me now.
As I walk through this world, with every breath, I draw it in from the inner realms and radiate it out through my being so that my presence nourishes this world."
Monday, July 11, 2011
Are You Listening?
Day 7: I started out feeling good, but a little light headed. It felt like it should be a rest only day, but I went ahead and did laundry and painted my park benches. I thought I was pacing my self, moving slowly and resting lots in between, but I kept feeling weak, unsteady, light headed, and my heart seemed to work extra hard. By 5:00 p.m., it felt like I had the flu. I finally took a nap and felt a little better, except for a headache.
I sat down with Gary as he ate that same delicious soup he shared with me, through kisses, a few days ago. This time, I smelled it and my body said no, it wasn't interested. I got a little drop on my finger and tasted it anyway. In a few minutes I felt a headache and nauseous.
Needless to say, I got some pretty good learnings around listening to my body. It is in such a sensitive state, the consequences of not listening are swift and painful. I'm imagining it is working hard to clean out and doesn't want any distractions. I appreciate how well my body is doing and commit to listening better and honoring what it needs. Tomorrow, I seek to honor my body in the work it's performing.
I sat down with Gary as he ate that same delicious soup he shared with me, through kisses, a few days ago. This time, I smelled it and my body said no, it wasn't interested. I got a little drop on my finger and tasted it anyway. In a few minutes I felt a headache and nauseous.
Needless to say, I got some pretty good learnings around listening to my body. It is in such a sensitive state, the consequences of not listening are swift and painful. I'm imagining it is working hard to clean out and doesn't want any distractions. I appreciate how well my body is doing and commit to listening better and honoring what it needs. Tomorrow, I seek to honor my body in the work it's performing.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Freedom
The more I read from Life Style Without Food, the more I LOVE it! It is simple, direct, thorough, and easy to understand, and makes perfect sense. It gives me so much more insight that I feel confident in my quest as more information is given to me. I'm also noticing a lot of synchronicities coming together to support my desire.
Often, when I share what I am doing with others, their first response is something like, "I LOVE food. Why would I want to give that up?" For me it's not about giving anything up. It's an investment in more freedom. It's all about the FREEDOM to choose. To eat for pleasure rather than from a place of NEED, which has a subtle fear base. I love to question the status quo and check the limits of my belief system. This is my passion.
My body feels excited at the thought of the freedom from limitations available, the opportunity to learn and grow in an unknown, and show others who may become interested, how it works. I see an exciting opportunity to serve all God's children in various ways through this one experiment.
Day 5: my energy was really good this morning until I took Epsom salts to clean my bowels. I'm learning that it dehydrates me so badly for the rest of the day, it takes my energy way down. I think I'll stick with enemas when I need to clean out. It's more involving initially, but not worth a whole day of feeling icky. I kept being prompted to just do an enema and I would feel better. I put it off until dinner, when I finally obeyed the voice. I felt much better afterwards. Good lesson on what works and on listening to my intuition.
Often, when I share what I am doing with others, their first response is something like, "I LOVE food. Why would I want to give that up?" For me it's not about giving anything up. It's an investment in more freedom. It's all about the FREEDOM to choose. To eat for pleasure rather than from a place of NEED, which has a subtle fear base. I love to question the status quo and check the limits of my belief system. This is my passion.
My body feels excited at the thought of the freedom from limitations available, the opportunity to learn and grow in an unknown, and show others who may become interested, how it works. I see an exciting opportunity to serve all God's children in various ways through this one experiment.
Day 5: my energy was really good this morning until I took Epsom salts to clean my bowels. I'm learning that it dehydrates me so badly for the rest of the day, it takes my energy way down. I think I'll stick with enemas when I need to clean out. It's more involving initially, but not worth a whole day of feeling icky. I kept being prompted to just do an enema and I would feel better. I put it off until dinner, when I finally obeyed the voice. I felt much better afterwards. Good lesson on what works and on listening to my intuition.
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Day 5 of 40
I felt great all day! I even had enough energy to paint some benches. I'm LOVING how slender and light I feel. So far, I've lost 21 pounds.
I've discovered I can still enjoy food through my olfactory senses. I thought it would be hard to be around food, but I'm actually enjoying the aroma. I can sit down with my family at meals and enjoy their company without craving anything or wanting to eat. I'm enjoying this experiment more than I anticipated. WOW! I'm excited and impressed. Thank you God. It IS easeful, so far.
I even discovered a great way to TASTE my favorite foods without eating. When my husband takes a bite, and after he swallows it, I kiss him. The flavor is still on his lips. It completely satisfys me. What a fun way to eat! ...and NO calories nor digesting needed.
I've discovered I can still enjoy food through my olfactory senses. I thought it would be hard to be around food, but I'm actually enjoying the aroma. I can sit down with my family at meals and enjoy their company without craving anything or wanting to eat. I'm enjoying this experiment more than I anticipated. WOW! I'm excited and impressed. Thank you God. It IS easeful, so far.
I even discovered a great way to TASTE my favorite foods without eating. When my husband takes a bite, and after he swallows it, I kiss him. The flavor is still on his lips. It completely satisfys me. What a fun way to eat! ...and NO calories nor digesting needed.
Friday, July 8, 2011
The New Human
WOW! I just found a cool blog on what the indigenous peoples know about the planet, and how nature responds to what we have done to mother Earth. I really resonated with the article. It speaks to my commitment to walk more gently on the planet and have more respect for all life, including my own.
Today is day four. I felt great until I went to the city to a wedding. I thought I'd be fine for just a couple of hours. I wasn't prepared for what happened. I felt very faint an hour into it, and when I got home it took the rest of the day to recover. Now I know why people say, "If you do 40 days, you need to be by yourself or at a retreat." I don't know if it was the energy of the city, or a lot of people, or just a phase in the fast. I took an enema when I got home thinking it would revive me, but it didn't. I fainted again.
"We can become homo luminous in our lifetime. This is our greatest task: to take that quantum leap individually because as we do it for ourselves, we do it for the entire planet. Each and every one of us, when we choose truth, when we choose life, when we choose light, we are transforming the world." - Alberto Villoldo from his blog called "Homo Luminous: The New Human" http://www.realitysandwich.com/homo_luminous_the_new_humanI realize how much I have abused this amazing body, as well as participating in the abuse of the planet by my purchases. I want to do my best to repent, change the way that I live, and promote harmony in all aspects of my life. This Journey to Neverfood is one aspect of that change.
Today is day four. I felt great until I went to the city to a wedding. I thought I'd be fine for just a couple of hours. I wasn't prepared for what happened. I felt very faint an hour into it, and when I got home it took the rest of the day to recover. Now I know why people say, "If you do 40 days, you need to be by yourself or at a retreat." I don't know if it was the energy of the city, or a lot of people, or just a phase in the fast. I took an enema when I got home thinking it would revive me, but it didn't. I fainted again.
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Day 3 of 40 Days of Water
Day 3 is typically thought to be the toughest in a fast. I braced myself to just rest today. I do have some weakness, so I rest, or contemplate Source energy feeding my body. I only drink water when I'm thirsty, which is quite often today. What I'm experiencing, I think, is the result of approaching fasting differently than I have ever before. Now, I'm thinking, "If this is the toughest, I'm in for an easeful ride." YEAH ME! Thank you, God.
At first I was nervous at the thought of 40 days on just water. That prompted me to prepare myself mentally, emotionally, and physically. Joachim Werdin's book Life Style Without Food has been the most helpful in all areas. See www.breatharian.info The forum is also a great support.
I believe the gradual process I have chosen, the pre-cleansing, and the practice of listening to my body is key to my current success. I continue to be amazed at the level of energy I'm still experiencing. I am able to be more active than I had anticipated.
At first I was nervous at the thought of 40 days on just water. That prompted me to prepare myself mentally, emotionally, and physically. Joachim Werdin's book Life Style Without Food has been the most helpful in all areas. See www.breatharian.info The forum is also a great support.
I believe the gradual process I have chosen, the pre-cleansing, and the practice of listening to my body is key to my current success. I continue to be amazed at the level of energy I'm still experiencing. I am able to be more active than I had anticipated.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Awareness of the Gift
A dear friend asked me what my process is to let go of old beliefs that no longer serve my soul. I've known that I have a learning process. I just haven't thought about it in steps.
What I could articulate is that I have an insatiable curiosity and love for learning. Mother was and avid reader and taught me how to gather information from books. Dad was a strong influence for listening to the "still small voice", and following my heart, the Spirit of Truth.
One of the first experiences I recalled was when I prayed to know if I should live plural marriage. I felt a huge swelling, pulsating sensation in my heart that literally sent me reeling back. It was a full body yes! The next time I felt what I call the "knowing", about a significant decision in my life, was when Faye was talking to me about Gary two and a half years later. I was asking God the question, "Was this the family I belonged in?" I felt a tangible stirring deep in my heart that was, again, an undeniable YES!
I assumed everyone worked this way and that it was normal. In retrospect, I can see that whenever I have lived in my head, I have been miserable. When I live from my heart and trust the signals, which I call Divine guidance, it always leads me to Truth and happiness.
As I pay more attention and become more aware of body sensations, thoughts that come in, and as I let go of baggage, I find God talking to me all the time through intuition. Then I realize the gift was always there. Memories of my childhood come flooding in where God has guided me throughout life and never failed me. Thank you, thank you, God.
Day 2: I woke at 4:30, felt great all morning until about 10:00 a.m. I'm noticing a significant drop in energy today. Resting a lot between activities.
What I could articulate is that I have an insatiable curiosity and love for learning. Mother was and avid reader and taught me how to gather information from books. Dad was a strong influence for listening to the "still small voice", and following my heart, the Spirit of Truth.
One of the first experiences I recalled was when I prayed to know if I should live plural marriage. I felt a huge swelling, pulsating sensation in my heart that literally sent me reeling back. It was a full body yes! The next time I felt what I call the "knowing", about a significant decision in my life, was when Faye was talking to me about Gary two and a half years later. I was asking God the question, "Was this the family I belonged in?" I felt a tangible stirring deep in my heart that was, again, an undeniable YES!
I assumed everyone worked this way and that it was normal. In retrospect, I can see that whenever I have lived in my head, I have been miserable. When I live from my heart and trust the signals, which I call Divine guidance, it always leads me to Truth and happiness.
As I pay more attention and become more aware of body sensations, thoughts that come in, and as I let go of baggage, I find God talking to me all the time through intuition. Then I realize the gift was always there. Memories of my childhood come flooding in where God has guided me throughout life and never failed me. Thank you, thank you, God.
Day 2: I woke at 4:30, felt great all morning until about 10:00 a.m. I'm noticing a significant drop in energy today. Resting a lot between activities.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Day One of My 40 Day Fast
I just finished 40 days of 98% raw foods. I used the Conscious Eating practice, which cut my food intake by 50% automatically. The last week was an intensive apple juice detox to insure a clean bowel to start the water fast. Throughout this period I and everyone around me, are amazed at my energy level.
I drank just one bottle of kambucha tea and two helpings of senna tea today to flush anything left in my bowel. Just before bed, the night before the 40 day fast began, I felt to drink a formula for expelling gallstones. The apple juice I had been on for a week softens the stones, so they can release without pain. The drink consists of the juice of one whole lemon with 2 0z. of extra virgin olive oil. This drink puts the liver into a spasm which expels the gallstones.
Today is day one of my 40 day water fast. It is recommended to keep the colon clean throughout the fast. I find this eliminates a lot of headaches. I opted to do an epsom salt flush instead of the recommended enema this morning. The fast will end on August 13th. Then my body will tell me if I still need food. I have already lost fifteen pounds, which is half the weight I wanted to lose altogether. I feel excited and encouraged. I am able to remain physically active.
I drank just one bottle of kambucha tea and two helpings of senna tea today to flush anything left in my bowel. Just before bed, the night before the 40 day fast began, I felt to drink a formula for expelling gallstones. The apple juice I had been on for a week softens the stones, so they can release without pain. The drink consists of the juice of one whole lemon with 2 0z. of extra virgin olive oil. This drink puts the liver into a spasm which expels the gallstones.
Today is day one of my 40 day water fast. It is recommended to keep the colon clean throughout the fast. I find this eliminates a lot of headaches. I opted to do an epsom salt flush instead of the recommended enema this morning. The fast will end on August 13th. Then my body will tell me if I still need food. I have already lost fifteen pounds, which is half the weight I wanted to lose altogether. I feel excited and encouraged. I am able to remain physically active.
Monday, July 4, 2011
Reality vs. Fear
I love how easeful sun gazing is. I've jumped to 25 min. of gazing. Since I'm learning to listen to my body, I can sense when I've had enough. I'm not afraid of the sun.
I love how much I'm learning the details of what the Masters have been teaching about the I AM within, and how powerful each individual is if they would recognize it.
I feel very excited to read and understand the process of achieving a "light body" in the book, Life Style Without Food. It seems the information I need to transform my body into a " light body"(homo luminous) is flooding in from many sources to support me in doing it easefully.
I noticed some of the fears that showed up were that I may disappear and people would just think I died, or that I couldn't be with Gary in that state, or that I might lose connection with family.
What I realize is that I am always at choice in every moment and can create it in whatever way I desire! I desire to do this experiment / adventure, and for the outcome to be for the highest good for all, to serve the Light, God, and His children. I imagine when I learn how it works, it will then be a KNOWLEDGE. Only then can I teach others who desire it.
I love how much I'm learning the details of what the Masters have been teaching about the I AM within, and how powerful each individual is if they would recognize it.
I feel very excited to read and understand the process of achieving a "light body" in the book, Life Style Without Food. It seems the information I need to transform my body into a " light body"(homo luminous) is flooding in from many sources to support me in doing it easefully.
I noticed some of the fears that showed up were that I may disappear and people would just think I died, or that I couldn't be with Gary in that state, or that I might lose connection with family.
What I realize is that I am always at choice in every moment and can create it in whatever way I desire! I desire to do this experiment / adventure, and for the outcome to be for the highest good for all, to serve the Light, God, and His children. I imagine when I learn how it works, it will then be a KNOWLEDGE. Only then can I teach others who desire it.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Loving Support
Friday was my third day into a juice detox I am doing to prepare for the 40 day water fast that begins July 5th. Normally, the third day is the toughest. This time has been very different. I worked along side Gary for several hours in the yard. He has seen me in a pretty low state in the past, when I've fasted. He is very impressed with the high levels of energy and strength I'm experiencing. I am too. I actually had more energy than he. It's surprising and exciting!
Gary is an amazing support. He seems to be watching me closely to see where this thing goes. He is having to make a paradigm shift and is willing to give it a possibility. I feel so grateful for his loving support. He is learning to honor and respect the stirrings within me, that want to learn and grow in my experience and understanding. He has learned to trust that I am committed to following my heart and to trust my relationship with God. He is the reflection of my wholeness and the confirmation that I Love deeply and trust who I AM.
He is an amazing example to me of living life in gratitude. Gratitude keeps life JOYFUL!
Gary is an amazing support. He seems to be watching me closely to see where this thing goes. He is having to make a paradigm shift and is willing to give it a possibility. I feel so grateful for his loving support. He is learning to honor and respect the stirrings within me, that want to learn and grow in my experience and understanding. He has learned to trust that I am committed to following my heart and to trust my relationship with God. He is the reflection of my wholeness and the confirmation that I Love deeply and trust who I AM.
He is an amazing example to me of living life in gratitude. Gratitude keeps life JOYFUL!
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Be the Change
It seems that anytime I have been open to learning and expanding my Love and awareness, I have so many more choices and room for more possibilities. I think society as a whole is realizing that they are limiting their choices by the myriad of surface distractions that appear to be choices, but lead to the same end, which in my view is slavery to the economic system created by "the elite". I am now choosing out of this system as much as possible. I commit to walking more gently on the earth and contributing to more harmony in my world.
When I think of the plethora of abuses to the planet just from our eating practices alone, I am shocked and appalled. From the deforestation and fossil fuels used for packaging alone, the abuse to the planet and the waste it creates is staggering! I feel a deep saddness about the devastation of life in the rivers and oceans because of our insatiable appetites.
I challenge you to pay more attention to your food purchases, and notice a gradual change in what you purchase and eat, just by being more conscious about it. There are some really good documentaries that may be helpful to you. "Food Inc." is one that comes to mind. "Earthlings" is another.
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When I think of the plethora of abuses to the planet just from our eating practices alone, I am shocked and appalled. From the deforestation and fossil fuels used for packaging alone, the abuse to the planet and the waste it creates is staggering! I feel a deep saddness about the devastation of life in the rivers and oceans because of our insatiable appetites.
I challenge you to pay more attention to your food purchases, and notice a gradual change in what you purchase and eat, just by being more conscious about it. There are some really good documentaries that may be helpful to you. "Food Inc." is one that comes to mind. "Earthlings" is another.
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